Britney Spears discusses conservatorship in new clip

In stark, sometimes vulgar terms, pop star Britney Spears has denounced her family for putting her in a conservatorship that oversaw major aspects of her life and career for nearly 14 years before a court finally lifted it in November.

"OK, so I woke up this morning and I realized that there's a lot going on in my head that I haven't really shared with anyone, really," the multiplatinum Grammy Award winner, 40, said Sunday in a 22-minute YouTube audio recording she promoted on her verified Twitter account before taking it private. "I haven't honestly shared this openly … because I've always been scared of the judgment and definitely the embarrassment … and the skepticism and the cynical people … ."

In January 2008, following a pattern of erratic behavior and police responding to a domestic disturbance at her home, Spears was taken by paramedics to a Los Angeles hospital on what California law calls a "5150" psychiatric hold for 72 hours. Following a second such hold that month, a court ruled Spears required outside control of her personal and financial affairs, and granted Spears' father, Jamie Spears, and her attorney a conservatorship over her.

"I think the main thing I do remember when [it] started was my dad's control," Spears says in the new audio. "He loved to control everything I did. I remember [on] the first day he said, 'I'm Britney Spears, and I'm calling the shots,' and I'm like, 'All righty, then.' "

Adding that her father was similarly controlling and "abusive" toward her older brother, Bryan, Britney Spears asserts it was mom Lynne Spears along with a family friend who "gave him the idea for the conservatorship." 

As she describes it, "I couldn't go where I wanted to go. I couldn't have the nannies that I wanted to have. I couldn't have cash. And it was just demoralizing" as she continued to nonetheless tour and record.

But aside from the conservatorship, which was approved by a court in agreement with psychiatrists, Spears says her family practiced emotional abuse. "I had to do what I was told. I was told I was fat, [and so] every day I had to go to the gym … and I never remember feeling so demoralized … . They made me feel like nothing. And I went along with it because I was scared."

Eventually, she says, "I started to get a spark back" while recording her 2016 album "Glory." "And that's the last thing they wanted me to do was to actually be better, because then who would be in control?"

She adds angrily she would like to "stand up in my family's faces and scream and cry and throw a tantrum. … I might even spit in their … faces.” And she concludes by saying, "If you're a weird introvert oddball like me who feels alone a lot of the time, and you needed to hear a story like this today, so you don't feel alone, know this: My life has been far from easy and you're not alone."

Lynne Spears, 67, appeared to know of the audio, posting on Instagram the same day, "Britney, your whole life I have tried my best to support your dreams and wishes! And also, I have tried my best to help you out of hardships! I have never and will never turn my back on you! Your rejections to the countless times I have flown out and calls make me feel hopeless! I have tried everything. I love you so much, but this talk is for you and me only, eye to eye, in private."